tomorrow morning.

Why does life have to be so hard? Why can’t I get my act together? Why must my brain LOCK on me? Why am I so apathetic? Why???????? Sometimes it’s just more energy than I can muster. Blech.

I haven’t posted at all in over a month, and for those of you who have been my loyal readers I apologize. Doing anything creative (or constructive for that matter) has been beyond my capabilities. But since I only have a couple of readers, and I know you personally, I know you’ll forgive me for the lapse. I’m trying to get back to some kind of routine, but it’s so very hard with hubby unemployed. I am constantly pulled down into a vortex of apathy and hopelessness. Now I have a cold which saps my energies further. I will try to start writing again. Maybe if I immerse myself in Carly’s simple little world, I will find my way back to creativity. I will try!

Last watercolor for a while…now I will concentrate on writing for a few weeks…

I’m under a very tight deadline this week with my paintings, but I WILL give an update next Tuesday! Thanks for your patience…

For those of you hanging out, checking in with me once in a while, don’t give up on me. I’m still here. I’m just working through some stuff and I haven’t had a consistent way to post the last week or two (computer is broken…must borrow others’ to work…not the optimum situation for creativity in writing or even thinking!). I’m working on my issues and I am not giving up on my goal. I see that I’m almost halfway there, which is scary, but I will keep pushing forward. I will update on the progress next Tuesday. Thanks for being patient with me.

Here we are again, folks. And since I was late last week with my update, it hasn’t been a whole week, which equals redundancy. Oh well, then don’t read it if you don’t want to hear it!

Romans- I have FINALLY started on a new chapter…woohoo! I’m on Chapter 3 now, what a relief.

Weight – Stuck at 201 for the moment. Being very very good. Walked 4 days last week (or was it 5?). Walked the really long route twice, which takes over an hour (pant, pant).

Painting – Well, I started a new painting but I haven’t really felt like painting, so it’s going to take some major self-buffeting to get me going again!

Writing – No novel writing, but at least I’m back to blogging (which shows I’m not totally depressed!), and more Carly Boone segments coming up…LOTS of ideas.

All around, I feel so much better than I did last month…much more motivation and optimism (although it still comes and goes like the ebb and flow of fog in my mind). I can’t believe that I’m at almost 45% of the way toward my September 1 goal…that is so scary! Just keep moving forward…baby steps.

New update on goals later today. Since I only have like 2 readers, nobody will mind I’m sure.

Watercolor # 7