Day One hundred sixty-nine
February 16th, 2010Struggling with self…obsessed with the Olympics and therefore getting nothing accomplished even though my deadline is one month away. Quick update:
Romans - nope, not doing much.
Weight - Stuck at 200 for the moment…there will be great rejoicing when I’m back in the “1′s”.
Art - Painting is stuck on half a marble…I’m sooooooooooooooooooo procrastinating on this one…perhaps I could start the next one …
Novel – You’re kidding, right?
Yes, I absolutely can’t stand myself when I get this way….getting nothing accomplished. But I just can’t seem to shake the lethargy. Having a husband AND a son who are depressed just totally rubs off on me…it’s impossible to stay upbeat and optimistic and motivated while being sandwiched in between two lost souls (so to speak). My personality just can’t block it all out…it absorbs it. I’ll have to try and put up a wall for a while I guess and totally concentrate on myself. I’m not sure how to do that, however. Sigh……..
February 16th, 2010 at 12:46 pm
its the OLYMPICS!!!
February 18th, 2010 at 12:58 am
I know how you feel about absorbing the mood of everyone around you. I am done with that though. I decided when I had Sophie that if life is anything like Star Wars, that I’m a Jedi, and I’m not letting all the zombie droids take me down. (I’m not a Star Wars fan, just picturing myself with a green light saber right now!!!!)
haha :)
If the “bad mood people” can have that big an impact on me, then it’s a two way street, and my good mood will trump their bad one (if I can just maintain it). It’s not fool-proof, but I really am immune to a lot of the things that a couple years ago would turn me into a walking Bad Mood.
Of course, a Target run always seems to help, too. :)
February 18th, 2010 at 11:36 am
I hear you, Mara. It takes a supreme amount of effort and concentration to keep myself “up”. I have tried a couple of things lately, like getting out of the house alone a couple of times a week at least…coffee shop or the library. It’s just really difficult for me to fight those “outside forces”. Lately I just want to run away……to California!