Day Ninety-two
December 1st, 2009It just shows you how busy and stressed I am right now…I totally forgot to do my check-in last week. Of course, it was Thanksgiving week, but still, I COMPLETELY forgot about it. And here it is, December 1, exactly 3 months into my year-long quest to get healthier, enter paintings in Art in the Park, write a novel, and memorize the book of Romans. The time is exactly 25% gone…whoooooosh. There’s nothing like setting goals to make the time just fly by. I’m not anywhere near where I “should” be, where I want to be to actually achieve those goals. I was feeling icky about that in my morning pages today…kind of beating myself up for not managing my time better and being more diligent. It does feel like I’m failing.
But then the side of me that actually likes me (this has developed over the years…I didn’t used to have a side that liked me) argued back that the only failure would be to not make any goals, or to give up and quit in the middle. This is the first time in years that I have made some concrete long-term goals of any kind, and I’m actually staying focused on them. This blog helps tremendously. Any of you who have been following it, thanks for putting up with my whiny self-involvement. Anyway, I have to give myself credit for staying with it, and even though I’m working at a snail’s pace, I am moving forward. I am keeping my eye on the goal.
JR mentioned that I did set my goals pretty high, but it gives me something substantial to aim for. As he quoted, “Shoot for the stars and reach the moon.” Gag me. I know it’s right, but puh-leez. But he’s proud of my progress, which helps me to see it from another perspective besides my own perfectionist one.
12 pounds down
2 paintings done
1 3/4 chapters of Romans memorized
2 novels started and an ongoing blog story
I will keep going, and that makes me a success already.
December 1st, 2009 at 11:26 am
I am REALLY proud of you! You beat yourself up but then love yourself to make up for it! You can do it!!!
December 8th, 2009 at 1:07 am
Wow, you’ve accomplished a lot! I think it’s really helpful to focus on what you HAVE done, and less on what you still have to do. :)