Please just ignore the whining and self-pity
September 23rd, 2009Yesterday…ah, yesterday. I was having my own little pity-party yesterday, after I discovered several more blogs among people I know. I guess what really bothers me is that these are people I know pretty well, so when I told them I was starting a blog, why didn’t I hear, “Oh really, I do one too.” It’s not like it’s any big secret, right? It’s there for the whole public to see…but I discovered them by accident. My feelings were hurt. Whatever…
The other reason I get discouraged is when I read other blogs by people who are REALLY GOOD writers, who are interesting and funny and make even the most mundane moments in their lives something you can’t wait to read about. I fear I will never get to that point. More than anything else, I fear being boring…and my fears are soooo realized.
But my DD and niece are right. I started this for myself, because I have an urge to write and I need a way to make myself more accountable to my year-long goal. It doesn’t matter whether anyone else reads it or not, it doesn’t even matter that it’s completely boring and predictable. I must write, and I will. Who knows, maybe I’ll even get better! Incurable optimist that I am…
September 23rd, 2009 at 10:02 am
I am with you! I think you are funny and I can hear your “storytelling voice” in your writing. :)
September 23rd, 2009 at 1:10 pm
You are funny and interesting. bailey’s right… we can hear that voice in our heads…
September 23rd, 2009 at 3:54 pm
sky- okay, but is that a good thing???
October 5th, 2009 at 10:00 pm
You are funny.
About the blog thing: It’s like I told you a few weeks ago. Once you tell someone you know in real life about your blog, there’s no un-telling it. A lot of people don’t want their real life people to know about their blogs, because it’s a lot easier to be open with perfect strangers than with people you know. It’s not anything personal against you–it could just be that they know it’s easier to be real and free on your blog when people you know aren’t reading. If you offend a perfect stranger, well… they can just go away quietly, and maybe somewhere down the line you wonder what ever happened to them. If you offend someone you have to be around in real life, then life gets hard, but if you just hadn’t told them… then life is smoother.
I know I personally am terrified when I tell people from church, in particular, about my blog (any church I’ve been at since I’ve started blogging, it’s a big decision and struggle–do I tell them? do I not? what if they look at me differently after they read? what if I’m ostracized? what if they think of me as lesser?). I’m scared that they’ll actually go to it. Because I am not a perfect Christian, and that’s really evident on my blog, and sometimes church people can… judge. Right or wrong, it’s uncomfortable, so it’s scary to have those people know all of your crazy.
Ok, sorry for the long comment. I just don’t want you to feel hurt about a decision that someone might have made to protect themselves–not necessarily from you but from other people. They have to lump their real-life people all in together. Make sense?